Welcome to both you and I.

Life right now is a huge mess. Everything is different and nothing is as they were. After three years of being away from home, it is very difficult for the same me to fit in again. The pieces to this massive jigsaw puzzle have changed over the years and so have I. It is a struggle to fit into it properly when you know that you are not exactly made for it.

Changes within the family, my surroundings, friends, people’s mental being and just about everything now affects me so. Each day, I have to try to adapt to things better and as days go by, I find that it is getting slightly easier. Of course there are those days when you just miss the past and the way that things used to be, and it pains me that I cannot have that anymore. It pains me that I have to change my lifestyle to blend in with the life of others.

I want to be independent of things again. I want to live my life without having to think too much about the life of others. I want to be selfish with life. I need things to work for me too. Work the way I want them to. Of course, we can never all get what we want. I guess right now, it is my turn. Lets hope that things will slowly change for the better.